I remember being at a mall once and was approached by a group of Jehovah’s Witnesses and we got into an
argument debate about God, Jesus and the 144 000; basically I verbally assaulted them and gave them a very good example of my “spiritual” life back then!
“Be still and s e e that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
and I will be exalted in the earth.” – Psalm 46:10 (Scripture quotes from the Douay-Rheims Bible).
That Psalm completely slipped my mind at the time!
Honestly, how easy it is to forget gentleness in a moment of passion?
And Kindness in a moment of tension?
Grace is so hard to locate in time of contention!
I know that we are supposed to be good witnesses, but it is so hard, and I am ever so quick to forget the fruits of the Holy Spirit! It’s a good and beautiful thing to know the redeeming love of Christ that brings me to being sorry and asking for guidance.
Lessons are being learned, s l o w l y, but I’m getting there.
A work in progress?
I feel this way because I am very aware of the times I have been careless with the precious gems within God’s word that have been made alive in my heart. I am aware of the many times I have crumpled up beautiful HOLY words of scripture in the face of Christ!
Instead of being a reflection of His Spirit, I became a refraction; diverting peoples hearts.
How beautiful is the story of Bilbo and his entourage of Dwarves, in The Hobbit?
Tolkien was aware of the development of character. As each one in the company make the Journey they become m o r e.
Slowly, as they make their way to the Lonely Mountain, I see myself in each and everyone of them. Even “Thorin, son of Thrain, son of Thror, King Under the Mountain”, in all his regality, makes this Journey to find himself. And when the company stand in the very heart of the mountain itself, they find that there is still much to be learned.
Character is defined through the turmoil of good and evil.
A constant wrestling within us that Chastises us, molds us and breaks us.
We become less.
Christ becomes more.
Before my first confession in 2013, I had no idea how to examine my conscience.
Like what is that?
So, like most people who are in doubt and hate lifting up their hands in class, I googled it!
I liked what I found.
It was redeeming, and incredibly scary – let’s be honest here, a lifetime of sin!
Amongst my sin and deep research I found a gem – The Sermon On the Mount examination of conscience.
Can we take a moment to bask in all that Christ has to say on this Mount?
Heaven, land, comfort, sustenance, mercy, God, adoption by God, Joy and happiness.
How easy it is for me to forget!
But it is a Journey toward redemption.
It is the same Journey we were ALL created to take.
It is in the depth of the Sermon on the Mount that we find treasures.
Christ is telling us in what we perceive to be little things, that it is there in which He dwells.
In crying with others we become leaders. When we realise how broken and worthless we are without Christ, we gain citizenship to a heavenly place. When we are pure and chaste, we shall see Him. Persecution and ridicule is inevitable in living a life that is Holy and constantly challenging! Eventually we become a minority that attracts the world and
I N S P I R E S change.
“You are the light of the world. A city seated on a mountain cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle and put it under a bushel, but upon a candlestick, that it may shine to all that are in the house.” Matthew 5: 14 and 15.
Note to self: a candle NOT a blowtorch.
Too many times I have hurt people with “godly” sarcasm.
What seed did I plant?
Where is that person now?
What did I lead that person to believe?
Did I remove a glimmer of hope?
Did I confirm a false belief?
What I want the world to hear is that speaking to people, truly connecting, r e a l l y getting into the nitty gritty of things, will be more of a blessing if we, The Church, offer to the world our wisdom with the same spirit Jesus teaches with on the Mount.
What would we see if we, The Church, became the HOPE of the world?
About Nicola Rothmann
I was born and raised as a Baptist, received my Theological degree from Baptist Theological College, Johannesburg and then converted to Catholicism. I was received into the Church during Easter 2013. I am also a wife to Jacques, who is awesome! Together we have two boys, Joshua Levi and Elijah Daniel. As a family, with Christ as our Hope, we try and live a simple life, that is both intentional and Life giving. In our home you will find fantasy books, scraps of material, toys, sketchpads, dogs, technology (but no tv), theological books, washi tape, lego and food, (I’m sure there’s more to us though). Lent and advent are my favorite times of the year I believe that Theology of the Body should reach the world, in love and hope. I believe that if we can let the world see the importance of human existence, we will ignite a desire for God in them. You can read more on my blog: http://joeltreeprojects.blogspot.com.